OUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SHIP'S LOG:

Well, the raw water pump was shot! The bearing in it was on its last leg and probably would have seized if I had tried to go much further. If it had seized, it would have ripped off the engine and torn the hoses and that would have sunk the boat for sure. It could have been rebuilt but it would have cost more than a new one. When all was said and done, parts and labor came to $1,138.09! And no, I don't have it. So I had to reach out to my sisters for part of it and the rest came from my good friend, Russ. Between them, they have almost as much invested in ABISHAG as I do. It is incredibly heartening that they were able to be so generous.

I won't be leaving the marina tomorrow. I have to wait so that all the funds are deposited and cleared before I can pay the yard tab. At least it will be another day of hot showers and warm toilet seats. And perhaps, just perhaps, the cold weather will break and I will not be suffering chilblains anymore. I mean there has got to be some warm weather down here somewhere. I know that I will eventually find it, just where I am not sure.

MASTER'S PERSONAL LOG:

I don't quite have a handle on why this is happening. I am sure there is a reason behind it all but I can't fathom God's reasoning just yet. I thought that this trip was about taking control of my life - being the captain of my own ship, figuratively and literally. I also know that it is about surrendering control to God and trusting unconditionally. I also know that some how these two are not mutually exclusive and that they are somehow interconnected . But just when I seem to have figured it out, I get a curve that I don't see coming and don't quite understand, and I am left to ponder and to walk without really knowing where I am going. And every time I question, ask for a clearer set of directions, or want to know what happens next, I seem to get that George Burns line from the movie, "O GOD," . . . ."Trust me, like it says on the money." I just have to believe that God is with me, that he loves me and that everything will work out for the best. But I still get nervous. Trust and self-surrender is at times very difficult