ICE BERG DEAD AHEAD! ! ! ! ! ! !

SHIP'S LOG:

Now I know what Edward Smith was feeling. Edward Smith was the Captain of the TITANIC and he had a "sinking feeling." Nothings wrong with ABISHAG. She is doing just fine. The problem is with the finances!

To recap: My original plan was to buy the boat with a chunk of change (a damn BIG chunk!) and then sell my condo to cover the cost of the boat and the upgrading necessary for the trip. This was the plan but then, as we all know, Custer had a plan. With the bad economy, the condo didn't sell and I had to put the cost of the repairs/upgrades/storage on credit cards. When the credit card debt got to $30,000!, I decided to refinance the condo, fold the credit card debt into the mortgage, and get out from under. I got the word today from the finance company that they couldn't come up with the money as 1.) there were too many condos for sale in the condo complex and they were not selling; 2.) my condo was/is an investment property; 3.) they won't make a loan where one entity owns over 10% of the condos and the Spa owns 15% of the condos in the complex. Not being a finance person, I am not sure if I am going to be able to swing it and go. While there are things I would like to have on the boat, I can go now without buy anything more and still work it out. I am not missing anything absolutely necessary. So if I have to I can go, but it would really be on a wing and a prayer. Hopefully, things will work out financially. I guess I am going to have to buy a Lottery ticket or something.

MASTER'S PERSONAL LOG:

I wasn't expecting this to happen. Everything seemed to be going well. It wasn't easy and it did require a lot of trust in God, but still it was all working out. Now I am just confused. Before the phone call, everything seemed to be falling in place and I was getting very excited about departing on the 15th of September. Now, I am uncertain which way to go and really what to do. It seems crazy that having made the decision to go, having picked a date, having planned out the route, that suddenly a major, and I mean MAJOR, barrier has reared its head and it has dealt me heck of shot. I am off the tracks and, path which looked so clear yesterday, now couldn't be more indistinct and hard to follow. I am sure, that is I hope, things will work out, but right now I feel like I have been in a car wreak and am not sure how badly I got hurt.

True, other people have real problems to deal with, still this is mine, and it is real to me, and it's no fun.